Tackling some fears after 20 years

Today seemed like any other, a plan to go riding in the mountains. Bags packed for the weekend away, staying with family, spare parts and all the gear for a good ride. 

However, there is trepidation in the air. We load up the car and head up into the mountains. We’re off the Thredbo in the Snowy Mountains. We pass the national park entry and pay our fees. As we approach Thredbo, I realise that it’s more than trepidation. It’s fear.

20 odd years ago, it was at Thredbo that I had a significant crash on my mountain bike. I have not taken to the mountains at Thredbo since. The day of the crash was like any other, an excellent day for a ride. It was not too hot with mostly clear weather and smack in the middle of summer in the mountains. I was young, naïve, lacking all fear, and (let’s be honest) not a strong rider riding an average bike. My brother in law came riding with me (Thanks mate), and we made the morning training with staff before going up the chair lift for a few rides. No one was allowed to ride Thredbo (The only run was the Cannonball in those days) without doing the training. 

On the second run of the day, around the first few bends, the front of the bike became unstable as I approached a contour bank. The front wheel got stuck, and over the handlebars, I go. Landing headfirst with a mouth full of gravel (Despite a full-face helmet), the bike was destroyed; I blacked out and was lying by the trail. There were plenty of people around, and help was there quickly and was getting medical care. I walked away that day thankful, and it looked like I would be a bit sore, but everything was working. 

In retrospect, this was probably the crucial event that would become a long battle (And will be for the rest of my life) with chronic pain and nerve issues that progressively have become worse.

Let’s get back to today

It’s now been five years since major surgery on my spinal cord (and a few other surgeries). I’ve lost 41Kgs, and am not on blood pressure medication. My health is better than ever. However, I’ve been back on the bike, getting fitter and stronger for these last five years. I’ve become a more mature rider and far more competent than ever. 

As I stand in queue with my bike, geared up ready to ride, I wonder to myself, should I be doing this? I’ve been excited for weeks now, but here I am about to try again. I get onto the gondola that will take me to the top. Let’s do it (Despite a few shakes). I can’t go back now.

I started the day on a green run, and very quickly, it’s not like any green run that I’ve ridden before, with a few quirky sections that might be on the scale of blue. I stopped a few times on this run to walk corners I did not feel confident on. I needed to trust my training and skills and the gear. It was a moment to focus and trust, and before I knew it, I was at the bottom. Back on the lift I go.

By the end of the day and five lifts/runs, I did not stop on the runs and could ride the entire length. Confidence building and an excellent opportunity to see the skills and training shine brighter than ever over the last five years.

After 20 odd years, I’ve conquered 

A few tears of joy, a moment to reflect and enjoy those special moments in life. A day that became more emotional than I expected or thought. I am so excited and proud of myself in this moment.

Change and Christmas

Christmas day is upon me. Family is all around, several generations altogether, we take a moment to remember what it is to be grace-filled, modest, and humble as we place gifts at the base of the Christmas tree as we prepare to give them to others. As Christians, we also take a moment to remember Jesus; we believe that God became one like a man and walked among us. There are noises everywhere with excitement brewing among the little ones as they gaze at wrapped gifts. Uncle Mike needs more work (That’s me), some better wrapped than others, and they are laid out ready to be distributed. Names on little cards indicate who is to receive each. 

This year though a change…….

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I was scrolling through Instagram a while back and a thought came to me. For all the inspiration being shared, goals and aspirations etc. I realised that more often or not that a contributor will tell me ‘I should’ it will be fantastic and that ‘I can do it’.

That’s so cool………. Uh…… Hang on……..

But hang on for a minute, they are not me, they don’t know my story, who I am, where I’m at etc. How could they possibly know what’s good for me?

The thought that keeps circling for me, could this be a subtle form of projection. Where an individual attributes characteristics in themselves to another person. 

Psychological Projection can often be thought of as a defence mechanism to cope with complex emotions. I’m not thinking here that there is some negative or defensible action.

Projection, there are a few variations (not limited to): [a]

  1. Complementary projection occurs when individuals assume others feel the same way they do. For example, a person with a particular political persuasion might take it for granted that friends and family members share those beliefs.
  2. Complimentary projection is the assumption other people can do the same things as well as oneself. For example, an accomplished pianist might take it for granted that other piano students can play the piano equally well.

When we think of sharing (i.e. content on Instagram or Facebook, or in person etc.) are we trying to connect with a person where they are at or being a bit perhaps presumptuous that they are where we are at (and of course that we know the truth of them). 

If we think the latter, then perhaps we’re not thinking of them as a person (an object instead). If we were to think of another as a person our mindset moves to a place to consider different things in them.

Person or Object?

I ask this question of myself simply because if my mind moves to assume a person is a object then I’m probably simply thinking of myself as that’s likely to be the first things that pop into my mind. My immediate vicinity. Perhaps that thinking is more like an object or at least similar/identical to me.

When I start thinking deeper about that person/s, I think of their situation, how they are different, their families, ethnicity, culture, location, financial situation, troubles and trials, celebrations, travel, introverted or extraverted, skills and capabilities and so on. I’m thinking much deeper and there I think more of them. I’m thinking they are more human than ever.

If I’m thinking of them as more human and a deeper person, Surely, I’m going to treat them differently too.

Contributing Forward

When we Insta-Project we can ask ourselves the question are we really treating others as people?

So, when I go the ‘you should’, perhaps I really need to hold my breath, reflect and reframe.

Perhaps instead, “I tried XYZ and had a great result, it might not get you the same result, perhaps try and see for yourself, it might”.

I know I’ve Insta-Projected, so the call is much on myself as it is for others to think through too. Give it some thought, you might agree, you might not.

Discover everyday – https://www.jesusrallysport.com/what-we-discover/

Where does our thinking take us – https://www.jesusrallysport.com/where-does-our-thinking-take-us/

 [a] https://www.goodtherapy.org/blog/psychpedia/projection

Level up on setting goals

It’s possibly a common mantra in this day and age to set goals. To have something to aspire to helps with motivation and in turn provides feedback and a metric to know that we got there.

Goals are a great idea, for all those reasons above, boo yah!!!

However, what if my goal was to master my craft and become a manager? What happens after you’ve become a manager. The goal is complete, it was a jolly big goal, so what next? Once the metric has been achieved what do we then feel?

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I wrote a paper

And it’s cool.

It’s taken me a while to release this, I had been waiting for certain ducks to line up, some have aligned, however while the rest are waiting, it’s time to be a bit excited and share it.

I also had to stop my wife from stealing my keyboard, for some reason she is really annoying today, but also very cute and sexy.

Honestly the paper is a little boring in that it’s all about the way we use technology, the way that’s changes over time and that for some organisations the catch up is slow.

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Welcome to the collaboration era

The demand and importance on uploads in the post browsing internet era.

The internet rose as a great universal platform for sharing information simply. A paper, a video or an image could be hosted and then browsed/downloaded and be enjoyed from a far. For many of us the idea of browsing online is a common idea. We’ve been given assignment, we’ve researched through online browsing, written assignments and so on. We’ve jumped onto the news and read the daily headlines. We’ve jumped onto Netflix and binged on all kinds of TV series.

To many of us to date this is the reality of the internet; it is asynchronous, that is we receive a majority of the content and contribute little back the other way. Since the adoption of broadband and this typical use, it is no surprise that most connections to the internet are also asynchronous. We often see internet providers offering ADSL 20/1, perhaps cable 100/5 and so on. (download = first number/upload = second number)

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